a day to be spent isnt a day to be wasted. especially with all youve wanted right in front of you, every moment is so precious because its never enough and its getting shorter. fate's in gods hands and god would never put something in your life to end up hurting- theres a reason for everything...so cliche but so true.
i once told someone promises i couldnt keep. people would have never ever guessed that this would be a promise to break. at the time i thought i could, but as humans of course our mindset changes and we just go with whatever is the simplest way of getting through life. thats a weakness-as humans we enjoy comfort too much. personally, im afraid of comfort. having fallen through that many times already, i see myself a hypocrite for hating it..but thats what im afraid of most. probably because of my personal experience ive lost trust in all others who have made the same promise. but i know thats a time i dont regret because ive been given so much more. and i personally have gone through enough to know that this is something so real, something i want so bad. i know i would never throw this away for all the comfort in the world and i would be willing to sacrifice so much to know if i had the equal commitment. not that im doubting, but of course its just life as humans-you never know whats next. its harder than it sounds...living comfortably is just a flaw that we have and its the willingness to give that up is whats love. being willing to give everything to try your hardest in getting what you desire. what your heart desires and what your mind desires are two different things-its your heart that will tell you to give it your all. im no pro either but im so positive about this. its not that i dont trust, its more like i view myself as an example. not much i can do- words cant tell...but i guess time can only tell.
o.a.-yc
